Reasons I haven't Called....

• The dog ate my homework, no....sorry wrong list
• I don't know what to say after "hello"
• I am angry at you. wow that was hard to say write
• You set up the rules. I was just following as "usu"
• I had my own load that was is getting too much at times, just like you!
• I don't like confrontation. I know, with all my anger issues I have anxiety over confrontation. Well only with ones close.
• You get so bitchy sometimes that I end up apologizing for things that I am not even really sorry for.
• I am just not ready to deal with reality of the situation because I am scared it will be the end. If you never say good-bye then it never ended.

Sweet Dreams

Only my pillow knows why I cry at night
Why I toss and turn without delight

I release all my fears, guilts and tears
Hoping to release it and nobody hears

The true feelings that I have about me
The ache I feel for what I can be

The lost destination I will never know
The joys and happiness being on the go

Up the ladder, straight to the top
I would climb and nobody could stop

Me, the person I know I am
And not the skeleton I call a sham


Kristel